one day in a row

I've been slacking off. No, I don't mean getting lazy. Well, of course I've been lazy, it's summer vacation. That's not what I meant, though.

I haven't been eating the way I should be. No, I haven't completely lost it. I haven't dived into a vat of ice cream covered with hot fudge and caramel. More like the occasional frapaccino. But, who am I fooling? That is not a legal beverage for me, at least not the way Starbucks makes it. Even if I ask for the sugar free flavoring. Which they have. One flavor. McDonalds has sugar free coffee flavoring too. You know what? We have three flavors at home, and I don't add extra sweeteners on top of that. I know where I should be getting my coffee flavored beverages from, for more reasons than just calories.

Its not just that. I haven't lost ground, but I've stopped making progress. I've been fooling myself. I do that... you know the self-talk... Oh, just one won't hurt. Well, no, usually one is OK. The thing is, I can't always stop at one chip... or one serving of them. Sigh.

So, today, I did better. Breakfast was OK, and I did better with a good lunch and a good dinner, and a good snack later on. Celery. I ate celery. And, I liked it. What will tomorrow bring? Carrots? Cucumber? Hopefully.

A good diet for me is hope. Exercise is hope. I know - oh, do I - that saying it isn't doing it. Still. If I can say it enough, to remember it at the right times, I'll stay on the wagon. My feet were dragging there, just a little too much, and I need a little less precarious seat. Today, I did good.