doin it right?

I've been trying to eat right for about a week now. Right to keep the blood sugar in check, that is. I don't have a monitor, yet. The doctor thought I didn't need one, yet. I know that if I'm keeping the blood sugar low, I'll loose weight, but, does it follow that if I am loosing weight the blood sugar is being kept low? I hope so. I know that loosing weight will help me control diabetes, and help my knee feel better - it has been nagging me since last week. I hope to see some other benefits as well, to act as positive reinforcement for changing my lifestyle.

See, the weight - in and of itself - isn't that big of a deal for me. I mean, its been my psychological armor in a lot of ways. I don't really appreciate the anorexic look as a fashion statement or style trend... I just want to tell those people to eat something! and keep it down! I don't think skin stretched over bones is beautiful. Shape is beautiful! Personality and wit are beautiful! Anyway, I digress... So, losing weight seems to be always about how many pounds. Agonizing over every ounce and berating your self if you gain anything back. When do you weigh the least? How can you trick the scale into being "your friend?" I just don't want to do that. I don't want to obsess over that scale. It doesn't sound like a fun lifestyle to me, and when I've done it, I've done it badly. Instead, I'll weigh once a week, and look for that downward trend... not worry about each and every week, or each and every pound, but look at the whole picture for the trend. I'm sure when that trend is downward, I'll be doing mostly OK on the diet portion of my life, and when it is not, I'll have to look at options. So the trend so far is down. Of course, it isn't much of a trend in under a week, but I'll take what I can get, at this point.